january 1, 2013

weight: 170 (yes i did just post that), calories: 1660 (it was my brother's birthday and i had a cupcake.)

yes i am copying bridget jones' diary. the thought came to me the other day in the shower that i should start a diary ala bridget jones. and not some personal secret diary, but a public blog for everyone to read. so here it is. this is my sad attempt to be carrie bradshaw or jenna from mtv's "awkward", or hannah from "girls" if she had a blog (though i think she gets one his season). basically this will be my life, i think the first half (well until i start dropping pounds) will prolly be my bitching abou being fat. and yes the blog name is a nod to liz lee of mtv fame, maybe this will help me finally get a reality tv show.

since today is new years i started 2013 by weighing myself. i weigh 170 lbs, i should be embarrassed to post this number but let's be honest, if you've seen my pictures on facbook and there is no hiding it, i'm overweight. my arms look thicker and i have to extend my neck further to lose its doublechinness for photos.

lets break my weight down to make myself feel better, i gained about 4 lbs just during the holiday season (4 lbs in two weeks is sad but it's nice to know my scale is to say 166), 11 lbs the rest of 2013. my usual weight about 155 so i technically need to only lose 15. but when i am 155, it would help if i shed about 10 lbs, so grand total of weight to is lose 25 lbs. 25 lbs is doable. i've seen people at slimmons, who have lost 4 times that. i can and i will lose this added fattieness, hopefully most by april cos i have a bachelorette party in cabo and coachella.

so what may you ask will be my work out plan. back in 2011, i got down to 148 for coachella by eating only 1200 calories and burning about 500 at the gym, i also gave myself a cheat day. i plan on doing the same thing. i once again will use the "lose it" app to help me count calories. (sorry i just realized this blog could easily turn into some sad fat girl's food journal, it won't, I promise, my life is exciting). i'm also going to cut back on the sweets, if you know me you know i love them. and before you get all judgey with your "what about the drinking, krisha?" just know back home in delano, i'm sober as can be like wouldn't recognize me kinda sober. so that will be okay. oh and my workout regiment will be gym on days i don't sub. and richard simmons' broadway (yes broadway!!!!) work out video and/or jillian michael's 30 day shred on days i do.

hopefully this will get me back into jeans and out of pants with elastic waist. the sad thing is that i have no real discipline when it comes to dieting or working out. this is going to sound horrible, but if i was a fat kid growing up, i would not have this issue. i was always a scrawny kid until my sophomore year of high school, i put on some weight but nothing too crazy. but this means i was skinny by genetics. i didn't have to work out and was able to have multiple servings of meals and was still relatively thin. so now as an adult, i'm like work for a good body?!?!?! also my body has turned on me. in my early twenties, if i worked out within a week i could see some kind of difference on the scale. not anymore, my scale acts like i didn't even exercise. the hater! it's tough getting old, i swear to god, i used to have a decent bod, well when i put on a push bra. and let's be honest, i have never had an ass.

so yes 2013 will be the year of the new skinny me. and all the other things i listed as a new years resolution.

oh and before i forget, today is also my baby brother's tenth birthday. i know he's 10, but he will always be the baby considering that there is a 20 year difference between us. i used to joke tha my mom missed me so much that she had to have a second child because i was away at school. but it's crazy to think that he's growing up. if i had my way i would have kept him four or five forever. that is my favorite age because kids are so inquisitive and learn things so quickly plus they say the cutest things at this age! but it's crazy to thing that he is ten, in two years he going to be a crazy preteen so i guess i should enjoy these years before he's too cool or embarrassed to hang out with me. though hopefully i will be that cool older sister. so yes, happy birthday brother bear!!!!